Coming to grips

You may be able to say there is no answer, but that doesn’t mean that it doesn’t scare you, or at least that’s the case for me. It’s so easy to understand logically that it must be so, but it is still terrifying to look at it. There’s a certain sort of deep sorrow that accompanies an idea like this. Something that wells up inside you, questioning everything you’ve ever thought and everything you’ve ever done.

Was that the right choice, or was your brain deceiving you, enamored by fiction instead of what we consider to be fact. Dealing with ambiguity is one of the most challenging aspects of AI, at it appears that humans do it with ease. I don’t think that’s the case. It’s true that we’re able to reference abstract ideas and concepts, but the deep seeded ambiguity and dimensionality of our state of being frightens us, and so we ignore it. Like an infinite storm, it looms over us, warping our minds and our perspectives, but worse than that there is no end, no terminus to the ambiguity. No ultimate appeal, rational thought our empirical data can prepare us for the unknown. It’s so terrifying because it’s a lack of anything or at least a lack of something we can comprehend.

If there is one thing that terrifies me it would have to be this. It’s not just a fear of the unknown it’s a fear of lack of meaning or purpose. Instead of convictions we are left with nothing, nowhere to turn but to look at the infinite, not something and fear its arrival. In the meantime, we wonder about purpose and drive. What is the good life, how does one attain it? But nobody knows. A prominent thought is to explore and expand one’s knowledge, think thoughts that are new and fresh. Augment yourself; make better tools in order to think more abstractly, to comprehend. I’m not so sure if this is the best way. When I pursue it I feel an unnerving acceleration, as irreversible so things are speeding faster and faster. I’m not so sure I enjoy that feeling; the issue is what alternative do I have?